I haven't been sleeping well these last few days, despite going to bed at 11pm-12:30 ish and waking up at the same time as always (8:45, to take thyroid meds). And I've been dreaming more than usual.

Last night I dreamed I got bitten by some random little girl and got rabies. My hand went numb and everything (I actually remember thinking "localized numbness! shit!" in the dream... maybe I've seen too much House?). But it didn't wake me up this time, thankfully; my alarm went off just as the medics were coming to get me. It didn't even get to the really frightening part, which would have been being stuck with a huge fucking needle right in the stomach.

I'm so tired :(

SDLFKJLSGDFLHGFDKJHJSD I AM SO SICK OF HAVING TO AVOID MY F-LIST TO PREVENT GETTING SPOILED.

STOP IT WITH THE SPOILERY ICONS AND THE PUTTING REACTIONS OUTSIDE OF LJ-CUTS, F-LIST. PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE AN LJ-CUT, LEARN.

I JUST SPENT A LOT OF TIME WAITING FOR THE FINALE AND GETTING ALMOST SPOILED AND I AM NOTNOTNOT HAPPY. AT ALL. NO, THAT IS NOT A SPOILER, I'M UNHAPPY WITH THE SPOILERS.

I AM SO FUCKING TEMPTED TO CUT EVERYONE WITH THE BAD SPOILERS AND FILTER THE ONES THAT AREN'T QUITE AS BAD. IF I CUT YOU FROM MY F-LIST, THAT IS WHY.

JUST LEARN SOME FUCKING MANNERS AND BE COURTEOUS ENOUGH NOT TO RUIN IT FOR EVERYONE ELSE. *STABS THINGS*


on a side note, i have downloaded the finale and am watching it for the second time tonight. if you want to talk to me about it i am on AIM/Y!M/MSN NVM, forget it, I'm exhausted and pissy and you probably want to talk to me about as much as I want to stay awake.

Just in case... THERE MAY BE SPOILERS FOR 3x16 IN THE COMMENTS. That's how you do it, bitches.

I had an epiphany about myself.

Granted, it's the product of a restless night and it's about 5:30 am here (3:30 am CO time, though!), so I'll probably think it's stupid later, but I wanted to jot it down. Which is why I've snuck into the den at twin's house instead of waking her up because I simply can't go to sleep, especially with this on my mind >.>

Both times I've applied to sorting communities, the majority of my votes have been for Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff. This has always seemed a bit odd to me, because I generally think of myself as a Slytherclaw, BUT. After reading other people's analyses of my personality, I think they're actually right.

I'm obviously Ravenclaw, because I have such a thirst for learning, a tendency to stay inside my own head quite a bit, and a strong study ethic. In my opinion, it's my primary house. My Slytherin, I think, comes less from actual original Slytherin traits than a deep admiration for Slytherins -- my ambition, really, is to be admired, and I think Slytherins have the highest standards. I consider the respect and friendship of a Slytherin to be more difficult to earn and therefore more worth working for because it's more difficult to gain, but I'm not subtle enough or quite ambitious enough in other ways to be sorted into that house. But, oddly enough, I think the admiration and desire to be liked by Slytherins is, in itself, a Slytherin trait; they tend to have more respect for their housemates than others, and they are often willing to do quite a bit to earn that respect. My love of Slytherins (especially in the books) can come across as pushy and fangirlish, but it's not, at least not entirely.

When I first started in Lumos (which wasn't that long ago, haha) I really didn't think I had much Hufflepuff in me. But I'm not a particularly close fit with any of the other houses (closest being Ravenclaw), and growing up in Berkeley, I've got quite a bit of the 'acceptance' ethos ingrained. The difference is that while I am willing to accept people for who they are, I still tend to rank and play favourites, though not for any normal or hateful reasons. It's also why I have very little Gryffindor in me -- I don't think very many Gryffindors respect Slytherins so much that they actually, genuinely want to be one.

In essence, I'm an odd mish-mash, a very weird Slytherclawpuff, with an emphasis on the Ravenpuff. I want to be a Ravenpuff that the Slytherins like as more than a pawn or someone to be manipulated, but I'm really quite okay with being a Ravenpuff. And I'm happy that I've come to terms with it.

Hopefully with that load off my mind I can actually fall asleep :|. See you all on Monday!

guh. this class is making me all emo, what the hell. i just have to keep telling myself that i need the diverse cultures credit and i can't drop, i can't. i can't even take it pass/fail (that would have been a good idea).

i almost got a second piercing on each of my ears tonight. went to the piercing place with tyler and wendell and everything... and then didn't, because it was fifty bucks. hell no, i need that money for food.

i was tired, but then i just had caffeinated tea from sonic so i'll probably be up all night. that was a brilliant idea.

edward norton is a badass.

LOOK MA NO EMOTES!