Before I forget, happy birthday to sandyra_kay! I adore you, sweetie, and always look forward to what you have to say about... well, everything :) I hope you have a fabulous day! I would be happy to write you a drabble/ficlet thingy, if you have a request. ♥

Today's going to be a good one for me too, I think. It's my one real day off this weekend, and I plan to enjoy it.

I think I've pretty much figured out how much I can handle, and hopefully won't spread myself too thin again. A part-time job, family responsibilities, GRE studies, finishing Latin, and having a small social life (on and off the internet) is about it right now. Social stuff is at the end of my list because to be perfectly honest, I feel absolutely no drive to be social. As fun as it can be, right now it's mostly just wearing me out, and I'm letting my batteries recharge before school so that senior year can be a blast. I'm a little thankful that my new job is not only less time and less walking, but also less socializing -- since I leave at 11:30am every day, there's no constant nagging to come out with them for dinner after work.

That said, I'm sad that the H_E Puffs in California are all down in LA, because I would have loved to meet up with them. I was just down closer to that area this weekend, too, but way too busy to do much of anything. :(

New terms are coming up in Lumos and H_E and I am really looking forward to them. Activity has been low everywhere and now that I've got a bit more time and energy to spend on the comms, hopefully I can help jump start it again.

I would love to work on the stories I have going now, but the muse isn't there. I've gotten 100 words into my NaNoWriMo thingy, and I know that I should at least write a bit more -- one writing tip I read said to write at least 10 words on a story per day, so it doesn't leave your head -- but I'm not really feeling it. Hello, apathy.

This would be the perfect time to film the Q&A thing, since I'm too apathetic to be vain and my eyes are channeling Jensen with the wonkiness, but Quicktime Broadcaster isn't working. AUGH. I know it goes against the whole point of the thing, but if I can't find some relatively easy way to record soon I may have to just type it up. :(

To leave all this on a fun note: Pearls Before Swine had an absolutely hilarious strip yesterday. It's like Lost in Translation a la Abbott and Costello. XDD

Things I started today: gardening. Well, weeding, really. Ugh.

Things I finished: 1) my application for resort_elite (which made me tempted, again, to apply to the Wizengamot for a real resort... but I didn't. Darn you, Hufflepuffs, for being so awesome and made of win!), and 2) A Game Of Thrones.

( spoilery for the A Song of Ice and Fire series )


On another note, I tried to explain to my mother about the personality tests I took the other day, and got caught in a typical INTJ/Type 5 conundrum: it is so easy to explain my personality in terms laid out for me on the internet page, but when she asks me how I relate to them, wanting my interpretation rather than simply "this is my personality type, let me read it to you"... well, then I feel like I'm being pried at and interrogated and I don't want to answer. I want to understand myself, and you, but I don't want you to fully understand me.

I love the anonymity of the internet, such as it is.

Today was an experiment. I agreed with my mother that I would spend the morning writing for three hours after breakfast, have lunch, then take Milo, and spend the afternoon doing various things that needed getting done (without going on the computer).

I think it went well. It's kind of surprising how many hours there are in the afternoon when I'm not spending them online. I know that's obvious and kind of pathetic, but hey.

I spent them cleaning, teaching myself to play piano, running errands, and doing laundry. And then, only now that I'm getting tired (spending five hours on your feet, including a hike, will do that to you) I am back on the computer again.

Good things:
1) my f-list is more entertaining when I check it less often. I was gone from it a full 20 hours or so and come back to a fandomsecrets vs. capslock_spn war (among other things). I must confess that my loyalty definitely lies with capslock_spn, where internets and fandom are the opposite of SRS BZNS. Though most of the time I really only lurk there XD

2) I'm not as crappy at piano as I thought I was. I might actually be able to teach myself again (and I can practically feel it fixing my posture already).

3) my mood is generally better today, despite getting more tired than I normally do (excepting days when I sleep badly). But my body still hates me.

I made a modly boo-boo over at hp_traditions but it's now been rectified, thank goodness. I also finished my fic for it, which leaves only the bastard hpvamp one that won't bloody work -- seriously considering rewriting it from the beginning >.> -- and then I'm free. I will have no one to write for but myself when this is over. I CAN'T WAIT.

Because the hpvamp fic hates me, though, my 3 hours of "writing time" this morning were spent entering contests at HE, which was really far more entertaining. I'm going to have a collection of really bad graphics when this term is over, haha. I can't wait for voting to go up on the most recent ones and especially on Hogsmeade stuff.

My grandmother needs to get her butt home so that we can go out to dinner, I've been productive all day and I'm fucking starving.

I feel so burnt out. I did a lot on hogsmeade_elite yesterday but I don't think that's why. My brain has been failing me for nearly a week now. I can't even RP, really, which is the worst of it. There is too much on my plate, but I love it all so much, how can I possibly give any of it up??! I've already cut down on things (only one RPG now, and I managed to get extension things on most of the fics I need to write) and it's not enough DD:

One bonus of feeling like crap is that my mother has actually decided to take pity on me. She's making me food right now, which will hopefully kickstart my brain into doing... something.

I wish I was ok at graphics. It requires so much less brainpower than writing. >.>

*still cheering tiredly* Puffs for the Cup!! *\o/*

Re: this post, I feel I should state for the record that I was only so pissed off because it was someone I had actually friended, not just some idiot that posted to one of the comms I watch. I can filter the communities out; I want to be able to read my friends' journals before watching an episode because I want to feel like I can trust my friends not to spoil me. Also, it was not the first time this person had posted partial spoilers and I asked before if they could please put them behind a cut, to no avail. I only friended them for the SPN fangirling, but if that's the kind of SPN fangirling that's in her journal, then I don't even want that.

In other news, I will be going crazy for the weekend over at hogsmeade_elite. Good luck, Claws on my f-list -- if you're not good competition, it won't be any fun to win. ;)

18 minutes and counting.... *watches clock*

I feel a little better now. I'm organized for at least the first week or so of hp_traditions, though I'm still trying to work out a few kinks. And I turned in my pinch-hit for the hpdesmutathon, which leaves only my fic for hpvamp and hp_traditions left. The latter got left to the last minute in the face of modly duties, and now that I am mod I don't technically have to have it in till the last minute, but I think I will have it finished soon. The vamp!fic deadline is closer, though.

Must. Not. Sign. Up. For riddle_gifts. MUST NOT. I need to like, detox from all the fic I've been writing. Or something.

Which reminds me. against the dying of the light has taught me a valuable lesson -- not to post fic until I have finished it. Apologies to everyone that was following it, but as you can probably already tell, it's been put on hold for other things. I will get back to it and finish it and THEN I will post it in all its glory. I promise. ♥

Speaking of writing, my narrative poem placed third in one of the hogwarts_elite contests. I never thought I'd place in an H_E contest at all, so that makes me incredibly happy.

Also, I have converted my mother to the wonders of Supernatural. Granted, she's only seen the first four episodes and we haven't really gotten to the gore, but I think that once she's drawn into the show she'll be able to stand it, even though her stomach's not as strong as mine. Maybe. I hope.

I'm going to be okay, I think.