Re: this post, I feel I should state for the record that I was only so pissed off because it was someone I had actually friended, not just some idiot that posted to one of the comms I watch. I can filter the communities out; I want to be able to read my friends' journals before watching an episode because I want to feel like I can trust my friends not to spoil me. Also, it was not the first time this person had posted partial spoilers and I asked before if they could please put them behind a cut, to no avail. I only friended them for the SPN fangirling, but if that's the kind of SPN fangirling that's in her journal, then I don't even want that.

In other news, I will be going crazy for the weekend over at hogsmeade_elite. Good luck, Claws on my f-list -- if you're not good competition, it won't be any fun to win. ;)

18 minutes and counting.... *watches clock*

SDLFKJLSGDFLHGFDKJHJSD I AM SO SICK OF HAVING TO AVOID MY F-LIST TO PREVENT GETTING SPOILED.

STOP IT WITH THE SPOILERY ICONS AND THE PUTTING REACTIONS OUTSIDE OF LJ-CUTS, F-LIST. PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE AN LJ-CUT, LEARN.

I JUST SPENT A LOT OF TIME WAITING FOR THE FINALE AND GETTING ALMOST SPOILED AND I AM NOTNOTNOT HAPPY. AT ALL. NO, THAT IS NOT A SPOILER, I'M UNHAPPY WITH THE SPOILERS.

I AM SO FUCKING TEMPTED TO CUT EVERYONE WITH THE BAD SPOILERS AND FILTER THE ONES THAT AREN'T QUITE AS BAD. IF I CUT YOU FROM MY F-LIST, THAT IS WHY.

JUST LEARN SOME FUCKING MANNERS AND BE COURTEOUS ENOUGH NOT TO RUIN IT FOR EVERYONE ELSE. *STABS THINGS*


on a side note, i have downloaded the finale and am watching it for the second time tonight. if you want to talk to me about it i am on AIM/Y!M/MSN NVM, forget it, I'm exhausted and pissy and you probably want to talk to me about as much as I want to stay awake.

Just in case... THERE MAY BE SPOILERS FOR 3x16 IN THE COMMENTS. That's how you do it, bitches.

So. Tired.

Must. Stay. Up. And. Watch. SPN.

Someone distract me until there's a download link? (And tell me if you see one before I do?). I've got a torrent but those take for freakin' ever. DD:

I'll never be able to sleep like this. Not that the finale is going to help me any. >.>

ALSO, SPOIL ME AND DIE. PAINFULLY. *avoids f-list like the plague*

OMG. OMFG.

OH MY FUCKING GOD.

CALIFORNIA IS OFFICIALLY THE COOLEST STATE EVER, Y/MFY?

AMIRITE OR AMIRITE?

Well, not coolest in the sense of temperature. It's 96 fucking degrees here in Berkeley, which is insanely hot for this part of California. We're right on the ocean, the COLD part of the ocean. We're supposed to get FOG and TEMPERATE WEATHER, damn it.

I am so not taking Milo until it cools off a bit. >.>

Well, it was a good day. I went for a walk with Milo and got sunburned, but the rest of me felt awesome when I'd finished, and I got my blood work done. I had lunch with my dad, which was nice, but when we tried to make dinner together, it was a disaster.

The problem, basically, is that my dad represents everything in a person that I never, ever want to become (and that I'm afraid I will become anyway). He's overweight, lazy, barely able to function by himself -- which was the whole reason why we started arguing -- and his marriage is... well, not bad exactly, but it seems like my mom is unhappy and disappointed all the time. Every single time I come home I see him deteriorating even more.

Of course, it blew up over something really stupid: making dinner. I had just showered recently from walking Milo when he asked me to come and help, which was fine, but I didn't want to go to the store because I'd put on pyjamas and done laundry after showering. It wasn't that big a deal, but when I asked him if he could go to the store and get the things we needed, specifying that it was because I was in tired, lazy clothes, he blew up at me.

So I said fuck it, and changed and went to the store on my own, because he was obviously in a bad mood -- but I couldn't help leaving him a little note that said I went. LEARN TO DO SOMETHING ON YOUR OWN FOR ONCE. Which, you know, was a little spiteful, but I felt entirely justified (I haven't been pulling as much weight as I could around the house, BUT NEITHER IS HE, and I'm the one that's actually home to recuperate). But I came home to him yelling "YOUR NOTE SUCKS, YOU LAZY ASS" (yes, he literally said "your note sucks") and telling me to fuck off and he would make dinner himself.

I guess I accomplished something, anyway. Getting angry at the people who think you're a failure is an awfully good motivator, I find.

And it's nice to know that getting insulted by people I don't respect still doesn't affect me. (For the record, I do love my dad. I just don't respect him anymore. :|)


ETA: also, I forgot to point my new friends to my All About Me post! Want to know who you really friended? Take a look. ;)

Meme stolen from lvlysnidrus because it's just too damn good to pass up. XP

List 10 fictional characters you wouldn't kick out of bed (in no particular order) and tag five people to do the same. (ftr, the first two would be my VERY VERY FIRST CHOICES. The rest... are sort of in order of preference, I guess; they're in the order that I thought of them.)

1. Dean Winchester [Supernatural]
2. Draco Malfoy [Harry Potter]
3. Sam Winchester [Supernatural]
4. Dr. Robert Chase [House MD]
5. Luna Lovegood [Harry Potter]
6. Neville Longbottom [Harry Potter]
7. Jim Halpert [The Office (US version, k)]
8. King Peter Pevensee [The Chronicles of Narnia]
9. Alanna of Trebond [Song of the Lioness] -- not that she's gay, or anything, but she does crossdress >.>
10. Bruce Wayne/Batman [Batman, obvs] -- as played by either Val Kilmer or Christian Bale, mmm.

I tag... anyone that wants to do it. :D

So after a rather horrid start to my day, I got to relax for a bit and then took Milo for a walk up in the hills -- I was headed for Inspiration Point (the name is fairly appropriate, don't you think?) but I decided to stop at the Quarry/Seaview Trails instead, which was a very good idea, because it was completely free of any other hikers and has a very, very pretty view (note to self: visit this trail often). Milo tried to hump my leg when we were getting ready to leave; he's a crazy dog when he's antsy.

I also ate better the rest of the day, and played ping-pong with my brother out in the back. He can still beat me, damn him, but only by a few points (21-18 and 21-19). BY THE END OF THE SUMMER I WILL BE ABLE TO KICK HIS ARSE.

I got a little bit of writing done. My brain's been pretty fried, but I know that if I leave fics hanging for even a day, I get even less inspired. I downloaded more music and watched SPN with my mother (she's seen up to Skin now -- I'm not really looking forward to our next session, when we watch Hookman and Bugs) and then a bit of House with my brother.

I should learn not to whine in my journal. It makes me feel better for the moment, but I always regret it later and feel guilty for spamming when my mood improves. XD

Also, welcome slyferret, sporkyadrasteia (did I spell that right? :|), and petitsbateaux from the H_E friending meme today. House unity hearts for you &hearts♥♥♥

It always helps me to have a plan, to feel like I've got something really good to work towards. Because I'm a control freak like that. So, it's motivation time.

By the end of this week, I want to...

1) finish my Latin essays that I've been putting off forever.
2) finish the two fics that I have committed to writing.
3) have nothing to feel guilty about.

By the time I graduate, I want to...

1) Find a way to feel healthy and happy in a consistent, lasting way.
2) Write something longer than 15,000 words, even if I never post it.
3) Read everything on my ( list of books ).
4) Apply to the graduate schools I'm interested in (still thinking science journalism at this point) and decide whether deferring for a year would lower my stress level or just make me feel like a failure.
5) Not use LJ as my outlet for whinging all the time and actually deal with things. >.>

It's only #5 that I'm not entirely sure I can accomplish. XD

Eurrgh.

I got home from Cara's house a little before midnight last night, only to discover that I didn't have the form my doctor gave me for my blood work. Of course, my mom woke me up at 7 am anyway and took me down to the place -- which was pointless, because we didn't get my blood work done, and basically just wasted a half hour getting mad at each other. I could have been SLEEPING! >.>

I don't know how to tell her that her incessant worrying about me isn't helping, not in a way she'll understand. She irritates me when I'm feeling down by getting on my case about it, and she annoys me even MORE when I'm doing well, because she gets so bloody excited by every little bit of exercise I get. This morning she ranted at me about how I don't care about my health, how sitting around on the computer is only making me worse, and wouldn't drive me home until I explained to her WHY.

But of course I've got too much pride for that. So I walked instead, and nearly puked when I got light-headed because I had been fasting for the blood work I didn't even get done. When I got home, I was so out of it that I microwaved quiche IN ITS PACKAGING and nearly blew up my breakfast. Then I binged on watermelon because my hands wouldn't stop shaking and, well, I figured she'd be less unhappy if I ate fruit.

It was either that or take a leaf from Dean's book. Dude, stow the touchy-feely, self-help-yoga crap. It's not helping!

I'm sick of doing this the slow, healthy way. I don't even fucking care whether getting my self-confidence and happiness back hurts my health, except that I don't want to waste away or die painfully.

Today is not a good day.

I feel a little better now. I'm organized for at least the first week or so of hp_traditions, though I'm still trying to work out a few kinks. And I turned in my pinch-hit for the hpdesmutathon, which leaves only my fic for hpvamp and hp_traditions left. The latter got left to the last minute in the face of modly duties, and now that I am mod I don't technically have to have it in till the last minute, but I think I will have it finished soon. The vamp!fic deadline is closer, though.

Must. Not. Sign. Up. For riddle_gifts. MUST NOT. I need to like, detox from all the fic I've been writing. Or something.

Which reminds me. against the dying of the light has taught me a valuable lesson -- not to post fic until I have finished it. Apologies to everyone that was following it, but as you can probably already tell, it's been put on hold for other things. I will get back to it and finish it and THEN I will post it in all its glory. I promise. ♥

Speaking of writing, my narrative poem placed third in one of the hogwarts_elite contests. I never thought I'd place in an H_E contest at all, so that makes me incredibly happy.

Also, I have converted my mother to the wonders of Supernatural. Granted, she's only seen the first four episodes and we haven't really gotten to the gore, but I think that once she's drawn into the show she'll be able to stand it, even though her stomach's not as strong as mine. Maybe. I hope.

I'm going to be okay, I think.

I GOT THE SPN DVDS. BOTH SEASONS.

And just in time to make me feel better for not getting the RA job! Or any job, yet. I have failed in the job department and the health department.

BUT I HAVE DVDS. Now I can share the SPN love with my family. :D :D :D



Also, thank you guys for the icon tips. Now I have so many geeky icons I can't decide which to upload. XDD

Today is devoted to watching the special features and finishing up the fic I promised I'd have in this weekend. Not everything about having a stomach ache is bad.

ETA:


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